Blame it on facebook

Facebook has taken over my life. It is very sad. It has caused a major cramp in my blogging and there isn't a night that goes by that I don't log on to see what's happening in "facebook land."

Seriously, it is really fun to catch up with old friends and chat with your family, but I really love "blog land" more, so I'm trying limit my facebook intake to only 12 log on's per day.

I didn't even tell you that I was mentioned on a very popular blog last month did I? Mckmama (who gets about a million hits a day, no joking) will sometimes hold a "name that photo contest," where one of her kids are doing something cute and the best entry wins a prize. Well, I didn't win the prize (which just happened to be a GOGIRL) but I was mentioned as one of the entries she liked! I entered under Jenkyle, Check it here.

Seriously, how cool is that.

It's hard to believe that summer is coming to an end and Kyle will be starting Kindergarten in just a few weeks. He is really excited. I'm hoping it stays that way. I know every parent says this but, I can't believe how fast time has gone. It seems like I dreamed of this day happening since Kyle was a baby. I wondered what he would look like, what things he would be interested in. I remembered when he turned one thinking, "well I made it an entire year without doing anything to screw him up, maybe I can do it again for another year." At that time, I couldn't believe that I could be responsible for taking care of another human being. And not only was I taking care of him (basic diapering, feeding, etc) but he was thriving. He was learning because I was teaching. He was loving others because I was loving him.

At the time I had Kyle I was a single Mom. I remember looking at him while we rocked in the rocking chair and through tired eyes and tears flowing from my cheeks I made him a promise.

I will never make you feel like you were a burden to me.

I chose this and I wanted you. There was never another option. I was his Mom and he was my son and with one look from his big blue eyes, I knew that I would give my life for him.

And now that boy who once fit between my cradled arms, will be boarding a bus and journeying into uncharted territory.

And he will do just fine.

And I will stand and wave from the road as the bus pulls away. As I wipe the tears from my cheeks, I will think about how lucky I am to be his Mom, and thankful that he has made it this far without me screwing anything up.

More importantly, I will whisper silently to myself a tweaked version of the promise I made to Kyle almost 6 years ago.

I will never make you feel like you were a burden to me. You have made my life worth living since the moment I first laid eyes on you. You are a gift from God, and each day I am the lucky one who gets to unwrap a present.

Now if you will excuse me, I need to log on to facebook to see if I have any pending friend (i.e person you havent seen in 10 plus years that only wants to be your friend so they can look at your pictures to see if you've gained any weight, had kids, or gotten married) requests.